No More...

I have grown up reading fairy tales n stories..

N i jst dint read dem..I lived dem..believed in dem..I thot dat its all true..

I thot evry story has a happy ending..

N I thot LIFE is also a FAIRY TALE..a beautiful STORY..

Bt everyday as I grew older..I learnt dat lyf's not a story..It is nowhere even near to a fairy tale..

Life is a painful truth..an unseen face..

Weneva u start thinking" its my lyf..its in my control..I cn do wateva I want"..Life turns its back on u..slaps u hard..N tells u.."BEING UR LYF..IT'S NT UR'S..It hs its own pace..its own way..nuthng is urs.." 

All u hav to do is "keep living it" d way it is..

Weneva u think dat u r happy wid lyf..u r satisfied n contented..Life smirks at u..n tells u hw wrong u r..

D moment u think dat "DIS is 'my' PLAN fr LYF..!!"

Lyf will laugh at u..n tell u wat it hs got fr u in store...

There ws a tym wen i jst luvd my lyf..luvd it d way it ws..luvd evrythng abt it..d happiness..sadness..success..failure..evry expression..evry emotion..!!

I did mistakes..learnt frm it n thus d lyf kept on gng..

Bt tym changes..view changes..I dnt luv LYF nymre..(I dnt knw if i hate it,bt i dnt luv it fr sure..!!)

Nw its jst lyk walkin down a road..jst keep on walking..It doesnt matter if u want to travel on dat road or not..Its dat "U HAVE TO.."

I accepted evrythng dat came in lyf..d way it ws..n kept moving..

I ws nvr afraid of "NW WAT NEXT"..It ws always "wateva it is..!!BRING IT ON baby.."

N wid dat attitude i gt thru all d bad tyms..all d bad phases..wid all d failure..keeping up my spirits high..

I ws happy wid evrythng i had..I relished every relation I hav held..

D bond wid my PARENTS..wid my BROTHER..n wid my FAMILY n FRNZ..always strenghend me..n pushed me to move ahead in lyf..

Bt in d past few years..things r nt d same nymre..ppl r nt d same nymre..!!

Earlier..It ws jst lyf who slapped me..showed me d mirror..

Bt nw its ppl who dnt slap..dey KICK..dey dnt show d mirror..dey jst SHATTER it..

I hav alwys emotionally connected to each n evry 1 in my lyf..Bt nobody cares abt EMOTIONS..

Its said dat "BEING TRUSTED IS GR8r COMPLIMENT DAN BEING LUVD.."

Bt whoeva i hav trusted..hs broken it..

D frnz whom i hav counted..whom i hav blindly trusted..lyk nythng..

Dey hav hurt me..Evry1 hs hurt me..smashed me..!!

Dey walk AWAY as if dey nvr knew me..n dey dnt give a damn..!!Dey hav no regrets..dey dnt realise..n it doesnt matter to dem.."go to HELL..!!"

Bt it matters to me..matters lyk nythng..matters lyk LYF..

It wud hav nt been a big deal if jst 1 or 2 ppl might hav behaved dis way..Bt hw cn nybody xpct me to keep smiling n stand strong wid a brave face if evry second prsn cums into my lyf n does d same wid me..

I hav always taught to LUV..n nvr learnt to HATE..

Bt nw I jst hate EVRYBODY..

Ppl hav made it difficult fr me to have faith on dem..to hav FAITH on d word TRUST..

It feels lyk evry1 around me is to play wid my FEELINGS..n my emotions..

Dey r der to laugh at me..to make fun of me..to upset me..to hurt me..

I dnt trust nybody..nymre..

I dnt hav faith in ny relationship..

Evry relation is nw lyk a STRAP..a MANACLE..a TIE which suffocates me each n evry second dat i live..!!

I jst respct n luv few ppl..my "parents".."J".."SWAT".."UV"..n "FEW" mre..I knw dey wnt hurt me lyk others..!!

Bt dnt knw..hw much energy i m left wid to hold myslf..n keep standing..

Slowly,I m LOSING my faith n believe in MYSELF..

N unfortunately "I dnt even trust u much GOD"..I m losing my FAITH..even on U..

Nw m "AFRAID TO LIVE"..I dnt knw wats cumng nxt..wat will happen nxt..

All I knw is I cant take nythng mre..no mre BETRAYAL..no more LIES..!!

And i guess.."NO MORE LIFE...!!"