A feeling called 'home'..

Few choices are not made..U r just blessed with them..N family is one such blessing..!

But as life moves on you keep meeting new people..some will become your friends..some will be enemies..few you will hate and others might hate you..But then comes the special one's who will make u feel different..they will be your family..and they become your home..
In this entire process, you knowingly-unknowingly give them special power.. Power to love u..take care of u..be there for u..protect u.. and most importantly power to destroy you..

Have you ever met a homeless person? Ever spoken to them and tried knowing how do they feel, when the entire world goes back to their secured homes in the dark and these people have nowhere to go.. Yes..it feels different..feels lost..feels worthless..feels lonely..

One fine evening, when u come back from work and find that ur house has been destroyed to rubble..how would you feel?? Terrified..Traumatised..Insecure..U will be in deep pain and agony..
The ppl, whom u give the status of 'home' can cause u the same amount of agony and pain..even more..and it cannot be measured..it's way beyond the physical pain..
Imagine when u r all alone..and all u want is to be heard..but no body's there for u..when ur 'home people' treats as if you don't exist for them..It does hurt right!! It hurts coz u chose them over everyone else..u chose them over ur family n friends..but they didn't choose you..

The worst feeling is getting up everyday with a hope that maybe today when you get back from work, you will find your home..maybe u will feel at home..but u don't..!! 

So with the  last leftover over bit of 'hope' from the jar..penning down the feelings..to find some peace..to find the lost 'home'..!!